#my heart needs them always
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I see one little gif set of 1666 and suddenly I am too overwhelmed with emotions to function.
Also I gave myself this prompt from the list I reblogged earlier: "sweaters and mittens" (but only mittens) and "gift"
It had pleased her mother to no end to see her daughter spending the past several nights seated in front of the fire, diligently working on her knitting and providing absolutely no reason for a scowl to cross Grace Miller’s face.
Hannah assumes her mother would be less pleased to know that she had been doing all that knitting on behalf of Sarah Fier.
But the possibility of risking her mother’s ire is worth it, in exchange for the chance to go see Sarah for a reason other than one created solely off the top of her head to give her an excuse to darken the Fiers’ doorstep. December is still in its infancy, but the cold has long since pervaded all of Union and that particular afternoon smells of snow, so what better time to make her way across the settlement, basket dangling from the crook of her elbow, chill creeping through her petticoats and into her bones.
Despite the cold and the rapidly freezing ground, there are still plenty of people about, attempting to chop wood before nightfall or dig up whatever root vegetables might still be salvageable. Only Isaac bothers to acknowledge her as she passes, pausing from plucking a freshly dead chicken to give her a nod and a smile. Hannah barely remembers to return the gesture, her thoughts already straying ahead of her, toward the house on the outskirts of the settlement, toward the curl of smoke she can already see emanating from the chimney.
The yard is devoid of both person and beast when Hannah approaches and she can only imagine that the Fiers have more sense than she does, attempting to avoid being out in an afternoon that is only growing colder by the moment. Still, when Hannah casts about for any feeling of regret, it simply does not exist, especially not when the door swings open in response to her knocking and she finds herself facing Sarah herself.
There is no mistaking the way Sarah’s face brightens when she sets eyes on her visitor, no hiding the grin that immediately turns up her lips. Hannah has seen more than a few forced smiles of Sarah Fier’s and this is certainly not one of them. The warmth of being on the receiving end of Sarah’s crinkling eyes and toothy smile spreads all the way to the soles of her boots, chasing away the bite of cold that has been freezing her solid throughout her walk. Hannah is certain that she could feel no warmer if she had tucked herself carefully beside the fire.
“Hannah. This is certainly a surprise.” Sarah steps back, opening the door wider in a clear invitation.
Hannah is all too happy to enter, and not just because it would allow for a reprieve from the cold. “A welcome one, I hope.”
Sarah smiles as she latches the door back behind them, giving Hannah her full attention. “As if there could be any other where you are concerned.”
The words and the ease with which Sarah says them threatens to steal the breath from Hannah’s lungs, just like they threaten to flood her with so much warmth that she might be tempted to shed a layer or two. More than a tiny part of her is tempted to step closer to Sarah, to reach for her hand, to let Sarah’s fingers warm her own. Or, better yet, to allow all of Sarah to envelop her, to warm her skin the way that Sarah’s smile has warmed her heart.
Instead, Hannah forces herself to look away, to fidget with the basket instead. “I brought you something.”
“Hannah! You didn’t need to-”
“Well, I’m still learning,” Hannah cautions, interrupting Sarah’s enthusiasm before she can get too carried away. “So keep that in mind when you see what it is. Consider it…practice.”
Sarah smiles, though her eyes are still settled on Hannah’s face, rather than the basket and impending gift. “So I’m expected to take your castoffs?” She teases.
“Something like that.” Hannah grins, pulling the mittens she’d been so carefully knitting for the past several days from the basket and holding them toward Sarah. “It’s nothing, really. But I…”
She trails off suddenly, feeling a prickle of embarrassment, a rush of heat that she hadn’t anticipated when she’d spent those evenings in front of the fire, when it seemingly hadn’t occurred to her that she would actually have to look Sarah in the eyes while she presented her with the gift. And now it seems ridiculous, the idea that she could just hand them over and not have to account for why she’d made them in the first place.
“Made these for me,” Sarah finishes, a touch of wonder to her voice that Hannah is not entirely sure that she deserves, especially not for a pair of lopsided mittens with a dropped stitch or two. Sarah takes them, brushing her fingers along the yarn. “Hannah, I-”
Hannah shakes her head, shrugging, unable to keep from tightening her grip on the handle of the basket. “It was just a first attempt,” she reminds Sarah quickly. “I know they’re hardly as beautiful as-”
“No,” Sarah says quickly, curling her fingers around them protectively. “No. They’re perfect. Thank you.”
And it sounds like she truly means the words, that the soft expression of delight on her face is sincere and not just polite. That sincerity does little to cool the sudden heat in Hannah’s blood or slow the way her heart is galloping in her chest.
If anything, it only serves to make her heart beat faster.
“Thank you,” Sarah says again, letting her gaze return to Hannah’s face. “But…why…”
There are easy ways to answer this, ways that don’t leave Hannah feeling flushed and uncertain, unsteady and nervous. Another lie about how she was simply practicing and needed someone to pass the attempt onto.
Instead, what Hannah says is, “You mentioned before that you didn’t have a pair, that they’d grown too frayed and worn and…it’s getting so much colder now so I thought they might…” She swallows, uncertain as to why there’s something about being around Sarah Fier that makes conversation so much more difficult than usual. “I thought they might be useful.”
Sarah is still holding the mittens tightly in her fingers, as though she worries Hannah might change her mind and take them back. Now she uncurls her fists, instead pulling the mittens on and beaming and seeing Sarah wearing the mittens, wearing these things that Hannah had created out of nothing just for her only makes Hannah feel all the more unsteady.
“See?” Sarah holds her hands up as proof. “They really are perfect.”
Hannah swallows and manages to unstick the words from her throat. “I’m glad they fit.”
“I will certainly be glad to have them tomorrow when I have to go out to feed the pigs.” Sarah hesitates, her smile faltering somewhat. “I would try to return the favor but I’m not entirely sure that I could create anything even resembling a glove or-”
“Oh, no, that’s not…” Hannah quickly shakes her head. “It’s a gift.”
Sarah studies her for a moment and Hannah dreads what might come next, dreads that Sarah might ask exactly why Hannah is bothering to make gifts for her. Because she’s certain if Sarah asks her, she’s not going to be able to come up with a lie, that it’ll be the truth that comes out.
How she already spends most of her evenings thinking about Sarah Fier, so what better way to use that focus?
How she had hoped that Sarah would look at her the way she is now, that she would smile like that when she’d received the gift.
How she wanted to be the one to make Sarah smile like that.
How the idea of Sarah putting on the mittens and thinking of her makes her feel a little bit dizzy and out a breath.
Thankfully, Sarah doesn’t ask. She simply says, “Thank you. I will treasure them always.”
Sarah reaches out to take Hannah’s hand in her mittened one and despite the fabric between them, Hannah can still feel the warmth of Sarah’s skin against her own.
#Sarah Fier x Hannah Miller#Sarah Fier#Hannah Miller#my heart is combusting at the thought of them#I can't stand it#also I looked it up and apparently the phrase 'cast off' was not used until the early 1750s but I used it anyway#so I am sorry#but also#them and I love them#my heart needs them always
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I need to find the person who decided Cait will go from a rich girl ashamed of her privilege and trying her best to make the world better, to someone who weaponizes her social and monetary capital for selfish goals that contribute to the oppression of the lower classes, the MOMENT she goes from heiress to leader. and give them an enormous kiss right on the mouth
#her family FUNDS THE ENFORCERS. THEY HAVE BEEN. FUNDING ENFORCERS THIS ENTIRE TIME.#and the ONLY REASON she threatened to pull funding was to GET VI ACCEPTED INTO THE FORCE.#not for any actually GOOD reason. she now has all the money and power to do all that good she'd always dreamed of.#but now she thinks of those she wanted to protect as animals. as rotten. as someone she needs to protect FROM.#i am going bonkers crazy this is so good. money and power changes you. everyone is vulnerable to moral failure. so good#arcane liveblog#arcane spoilers#s1 vicait breakup was a lil silly to me because i didn't feel they were THAT different. but i was naiive. i was blinded. vi was right.#s2 vicait breakup is breaking my heart because it is directly caused by how different their upbringing is. they are on completely different#social levels. there is such an insane imbalance there and vi jumped headlong into it thinking it didn't matter because she was loved.#i am SICK. to my STOMACH. i LOVE THEM
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The great thing about the White Collar OT3 is that at no point does the introduction of Neal into El and Peter's everyday lives never feels like a threat to Peter and El's marriage.
Like from the moment Neal shows up at their house in episode one he and El hit it off.
Within the first 5 episodes Neal and El have figured out they have similar knowledge and interest in the finer things, they're sharing looks over how Peter talks about and will react to things, El is telling Peter to trust in Neal a little, Neal is helping make sure they have a lovely anniversary, and El is calling Neal in to mediate/help prove her point in mini arguments to make Peter do stuff.
They also work really well because while Peter, El, and Neal might all be slightly different flavours and intensities of hyper competent adrenaline junkie weirdos, all three of them are intensely loyal to "their people" so the second El and Neal recognised that they both trust Peter as someone who will always try to do the right thing and respect them they were like "oh green flag."
#chirping wren#white collar#white collar ot3#elizabeth burke#peter burke#neal caffrey#its wild that peter is considered like Just Some Guy compared to them both#cause like he sorta is#he tries so hard bless his heart to just be a simple man with simple tastes and a simple life#and like he kinda succeeds#but also the dude's brain is always going#he stalked his wife prior to asking her out#he has an insane level of attention to detail when he chooses to apply it which is what makes him a brilliant white collar agent#he just struggles with connecting facts to emotions sometimes#el and neal both treat him as like their rock because he is so straightforward and upright#but also the man will leap into the most batshit situations at the drop of the hat if either of them asks him with big wet eyes#like sir that is not normal plain simple guy behaviour#so glad this show came across my dash again and got me on a rewatch#they are all so blorbo shaped and by god do i need that rn
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i can't stop thinking about how in the end of the queen of nothing, jude says that neither her nor cardan know how to be happy. they don't know how to live without lying and scheming and fighting and plotting: with each other and with other people
so now imagine jude and cardan after the dust has settled. they wouldn't know what 2 do with each other. like just imagine them now getting to know each other. it's like they've never met because ofc they still bicker and everything, but they are married and they just fought and almost died for each other. and yet jude can't say what's cardan's favorite color and cardan doesn't know her favorite snacks
with the court of shadows as matchmakers it starts turning into a whole ass romcom. one night jude wakes up and cardan is just pacing the room nervously and she immediately panics and thinks something is wrong but no. cardan is taking her to one of the places he used to hide in as a little kid and he's. stressed, to say the least
it's one of the rare times jude gets to see elfhame without some pressing responsibility on her mind. she worries about the state of the palace in the hours they're gone and cardan tries ( as well as he can ) to reassure her that the court of shadows is there and she can let the court go for like,, 2 hours. and then jude is a little quiet and she's just staring around her like yeah this land that she has given her life and body for is so beautiful. she knows about cardan's mother, so she tells him about her own.
anyway i'll go more into depth later but like. it's a very rocky journey. jude sleeps fitfully and has nightmares; cardan tries to avoid sleep by getting drunk. jude's from the human lands and tells cardan to sober up. they both kinda just hold each other during a really bad night. cardan finds out balekin made jude kiss him and is so ashamed and shocked and horrified he can barely look her in the eyes except mutter apologies
cardan also persuades jude to drink btw. she's a very clingy drunk ( not weepy, she's not emotional or anything but she refuses to let go of him )
#꒰ ✿ ꒱ — rose.#UGH THESE TWO#my heart is always aching i miss themm#i need more soft jurdan can u tell#i will elaborate more if asked :3#( i will elaborate even if not asked )#the cruel prince#tcp#the queen of nothing#the folk of the air#tfota#jude duarte#cardan greenbriar#jurdan#jude x cardan#the court of shadows#< i guess? i kinda mentioned them
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a very sweet & loving stankyle kiss i commissioned from @currrsy 💙💚
#sp style#south park#aaahh this still feels so dreamy i need 2 keep staring at them forever and ever#the little details!!!!! just agh love the way their hair looks so fluffy and messy and its still my fav thing about cursys stan#poor baby always looks like hes in need of a good rest and here it looks like kyle can kiss him until he falls asleep#kyles got him hes safe in his arms ;;#the little hearts were such a cute little bonus ^_^ and the green shade was exactlyyyy what i had in mind !!#and all their freckles & beauty marks so so love i kissie each and every one ✨ + stans dark circles mwah 💋#my heart is so full and happy thank you so much cursy!!💗#💘
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My favourite loser scientist (we are legally married)
Handplates!Gaster by @zarla-s (thank you so much for this AU it has given me life for the past 6 years)
#handplates gaster#gaster#undertale#art#wd gaster#I'm sooo in love with him it's not even funny#anybody who can recognise the formulas on his tie gets points <3#and no they aren't random scribbles >:)#I'm picturing either the goatparents or Alphys gifting him with this stupid science tie#And Gaster was like “Why would I need a tie with basic thermodynamic equations a skeleton of my caliber obviously has them memorized”#(he absolutely does not)#Gaster trying to remember what the equation is for the thermodynamic process of work done by an expanding gas : :/#The tie: hold my threads#Tried to draw him as babygirl in a suit but he just ended up looking cripplingly depressed (as always)#promise i'll make him cuntier next time#my stupid skeleton wife#my favourite is the one on the couch he just looks so cute...gah my heart#gushing hours#I had Ukagaster opened while painting all three and it made my entire life if only you knew bbgirl#my art
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you gave me the best of me, so you'll give you the best of you 🩵 [ cr: namuspromised ]
#btsedit#btsgif#dailybts#usersky#userpat#userines#heygingko#userdimple#usersevn#raplineuser#uservans#rjshope#annietrack#useremmeline#usermaggie#usermizuoka#nuggettracks#bts#ot7#*mine#tw flashing#magic shop has always been and will always be dear to my heart#there was an incident around the 2019 summer musters when i happened to watch them recite their end ments before performing this#and i realized even then these boys would always mean something special to me#as much as my relationship as a fan has changed? that remains to a large extent#so i felt the need to commemorate that#show me i'll show you indeed 💜
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tri-trans! happy#tdov 💘
#trigun#trigun stampede#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#meryl stryfe#available as a print also in the little heart#<-- guy who needs to work on promoting. but i just drew this for fun and for my own self happiness...#i drew an one piece vers of this before and i remembered it today while scrolling thru twitter#and knew i had to make a vers for them.... SOON MILLY WILL JOIN THEM TOO!!! love and peace!!!#they just make me sooo happy and its like. most ppl i interact with tends to hc them as trans so naturally. also the way nightow just#designed them. SO trans coded. sometimes i think about vash's design -- look at his little earring his hair his long red coat with the dips#it gets me every time. and meryl and wolfwood and milly... and actual trans canon chara elendira my love <3#anyway. im just happy being trans on this day. and everyday! it's been pretty rough but it's always nice to celebrate just being here#and with everyone else#ruporas art
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Bad boys..... Ssave me bad boys..... Oh God oh no.......,,..
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#bandit's doodles#grian#joel smallishbeans#jimmy solidarity#the bad boys#the monthly urge to rewatch the life series is back#I loathe them#i saw a compilation of them last night and I needed more content of them#So I took it into my own hands#I stepped up to the plate and drew my heart out#drawing non-creature Joel was nerve wracking#Hes still kind of a creature though right#i will always wait for the next climbing into conversation episode#limited life was so beautiful#i hope next life series is limited life 2#electric boogaloo#limiteder life#Limited life (now with less time!)#also uh european magpie for bad boy grian anyone#i was gonna add more tags#But I can only say 'drawing this was fun' so many times#Though!i haven't finished a full drawing in a minute#So that's something!#goodnight#And farewell!!
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Julian Blackthorn’s constant awareness of his siblings is both so heartwarming and so heartbreaking to read
#he really is their dad#he thinks the way a parent should think and its amazing#he is always putting them first#checking if they’re okay#making note of what they need#its so sweet knowing how much he cares about them#and how amazing of a job he has done at raising them#but man does it make me sad#because he has done it all at his own expense#the idea of raising FOUR kids from the age of twelve#on top of having your father killed and older brother taken away and sister banished#this poor boy#oh and also secretly and illegally being in love with his parabatai#and secretly running the institute and taking care of his sick uncle without ANYONE finding out#truly one of the strongest and most amazing characters in this franchise#i am always blown away at how much he is constantly taking on#i love julian blackthorn with all my heart#he is just so amazing#julian blackthorn#the dark artifices#lady midnight#the shadowhunter chronicles#shadowhunters#cassandra clare#blackthorns#emma carstairs#ty blackthorn#livvy blackthorn#tavvy blackthorn#kate's post
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Did she keep you trapped?
#critical role#ygifs#fearne#cr3#the way fearne Immediately needs to liberate trapped creatures with a desperation that makes my heart ache :) comedy?? nah Trauma :)#a lonely little girl growing up in a nightmare and her heart is so big she only sees the dream#and she grows up believing with all her love that her parents Love her. her nana Loves her. and they'll be together one day.#and then it's growing up realizing just how dark the shadows were around her but no her home was always lovely it has to be#and it's not their fault if something hurts. if anything it's hers right. shes the solution for them of course she was the problem after al#the nana she loves can't be the hag who took her for a prize the parents she's searching for can't have left her behind.#her home was never a cage she just Has to free every trapped creature she sees#she'll laugh lightly and often and shrug it all away because it's not heavy. it doesn't hurt her. she's fine. she's fearne.#love nana morri to death also a thousand percent sure she modified little fearne's memory A Ton to keep her :).#how times did fearne try to run away crying only to be given a grin and a postcard and those fears are just one more thing taken from her#and it's all so lovely and nothing hurts and she's totally fine#my galpaloway
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I made a few new wax seal stamps out of clay (like the ones I did for my worldbuilding stuff forever ago), this time just of random symbols that I thought might look good done in the style of painting over the raised part of the wax or etc. :0c Some of them aren't carved deep enough to really show up that well, but overall they worked okay for being clay lol
#wax seal#crafts#wax stamp#stationery#Window one is kind of stinky.. I was imagining like a swirly night sky sort of looking thing so it would be a surreal contrast of a night#sky with a window in the middle that shows a daytime sky - but the silver and purple wax kind of mixed too much together#with the black and it just looks very plain black and not all that starry or anything hjbhj.. Of course the eye is probably my favorite#since all I ever do is draw eyes and still like eye imagery for some reason. The four leaf clover is very lumpy and skrunkty but also it wa#the smallest in size out of all of them so was easier to do multiple stamps of just to try it out.#The heart with eyes wax is actually more swirly in person. I wanted it to be a mix of light pink and red and white. and the wax#did kind of all blend together but in person you can definitely see MORE of the intentional swirlyness. in this it just looks plain pink.#I was going to do one eye in the heart but it looked weird. but now two seems too plain. i could have done 3?? in a pattern.. hmm#alas. I wish I could make actual metal ones. With the clay i have to paint them in a thin layer of olive oil before stamping because#otherwise the wax just kind of gets stuck in the grooves of the clay and then you can't pull it up. Very wacky ''unprofessional'' looking#set up where I'm hot gluing circles of sculpey clay to short stumps of a wooden dowel that I sawed apart with a serrated bread knife#and then using an old paintbrush to put olive oil on them whilst holding a spoon over a yankee candle flame hjbjh#ANYWAY.. I think if I were middle class/rich/etc. this would be one of the main things in my crafting room is like.. SO many colors#of wax. and all different custom made stamps designed by me. which could be much more elaborate in actual metal.. muahaha.... >:)c#RHGghhh... I actually don't want to talk much about it since (this is probably just my Obsessed With My Own World Artist Delusions) I#think I have a really cool idea for a game that could genuinely be successful if i ever get to make it and I don't want to give#everything away and spoil the whole plot/concept in hopes that one day I can actually do it - BUT - a game that I'd like to make after the#visual novel I'm making now has partially to do with the main character working as a sort of writer/scribe/artist assistant in an elven#city (set in my world/with my worldbuilding species and versions of elves and etc) and I was thinking of maybe incorporating#somehow being able to collect little writing type items like these like.. you can get different wax seal patterns or pens or etc. when I do#stuff like this in Real Life it always makes me think of that like.. ouh... this is good research.. what it shall be like to be a littol#elf collecting wax seals and such.. indeed... GRR i need to be finished with my current game NOWWW... i MUST work on other#thingss... aughh... ANYWAY.. yay. accomplishment to do One Single Thing other than Sit In The Summer Heat And Rot#though also hilarious as this was the first cool-ish day that was below 80F in a while hgvh#waking up like 'wow.. i actually feel okay today?? like I could do things?? how mysterious.. I wonder why..?? :0'' Its The Weather You Fool#Tis Always The Weather
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ThEM
#THEM GUYS#THEM ALWAYS#I need a Maria to fight my self loathing man#I love this scene so much#it’s beyond heart warming sad and beautiful#shadow the hedgehog#dark beginnings#shadow dark beginnings#sonic x shadow generations
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sometimes i think "nah, i'm not THAT obsessed with f/o" and then i see f/o and sdjdkcjkcjckdhfk 💝💓💝💕💖💓💘💖💟💓💝💓💕💘
#first was watching op now hy.pmic guys its too much for my heart XD#i see them for one second and i need to pause video and hide my face#no but i am screenshoting almost every moment of r.osho being on screen#i have growing collection of my bf being very unimpressed i love him sm hes so cute and handsome and sweet and pretty#fuck i want to cry i love him sm#why am i always descending further and further into madness in tags
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Finger Hearts Obikin Art
I commed @ebiemoon an Obikin art of them doing the finger hearts, and it turned out soooo pretty! Both boys look absolutely adorable in that pose and in their Jedi robes -- Anakin's leather tabard is so shiny. Plus, both of their hair looks so soft to touch. Eeee! Thank you so much, @ebiemoon ^_^
#obikin#fanart#commission#ebiemoon is bloody amazing#obi wan kenobi#anakin skywalker#finger heart#both boys look so beautiful and soft#i need them always in my life#oh my heart
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just an absolute MASSIVE HUGE HUMONGUS GIANT jrwi doodle/sketch/idk dump from all my sudden bursts of motivation INCOMING TAKE COVER HIDE STOP DROP AND ROLL
yeah they are all headshots (except for one)!!! What about it (falls over. imposter syndrome GO)
#cantrip jrwi#william wisp#gillion tidestrider#tide lambert#dakota cole#hhhhhhhhhhheuHUUUUUUUUUHHHHHHH#lizzie lafayette#jrwi pd#jrwi fanart#pseudokart#my art#need to spread my white eyelashes william wisp propoganda#i just really like drawing faces ok theres just so much to faces they're so unique i love faces ok#gillion tidestrider sea foam hair you are real in my heart#also am learning how to add more depth to faces#always love the tumblr tag system i feel 10 times more unhinged in here#dakota cole has those barefoot toe shoe things. parkour!#i have a problem where if i cannot picture how a character looks i just Cannot draw them.#like they do not look right#i posted this on my twitter first but tumblr allows more images in one post so here they are too#jrwi
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